Most of my life I have been jealous and hateful of people who always had everything under control.
I would think to myself that they were most likely
boring
and repetitive
and safe
and never knew how to let loose.

you know,
those kind of people who always have clean, nicely decorated homes
and who have calendars with things written on them;
like appointments, due dates, and people's birthdays.

those kind of people who make time for things they need to do,
sleep well,
eat well,
get enough daily excersize,
all of that shit.

Well, I've been thinking a lot.
And I've decided that those people are probably a lot happier than I am, most of the time.
Those people are probably a lot less stressed.

I think,
I am going to try to be more like those kind of people.
For my own sake.